Re: Just Checking In

[deemoyza]

Whoa. It's been a little over ten hours since my first dose of the new meds, and I'm just... is this how other people live? Not 500 thoughts constantly screaming in their brain, each trying to get attention? A quiet mind? A sense of control????

Strattera, my beloved, do not betray me with weird side effects, I beseech you. This is the greatest I've felt in a loooong time!

I have to admit, though, there is a part of me that is a little bit resentful. If I'd been diagnosed earlier, if I'd had access to meds like this, what might have been? Where would I be now? But I also understand. I am part of Generation Undiagnosed, and the diagnostics, particularly for the way I present ADHD symptoms, just weren't there until recently. Better late than never, and all that, I guess.

And it's true. Whatever might-have-beens can't be changed, but the way I'm feeling now is like seeing a light at the end of a tunnel I didn't even know I was in, and that's absolutely priceless.

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[runicmagitek]

Oh I'm so delighted to hear the meds are helping so far!! This is LITERALLY how I felt when I first took mine. Just like... wait wtf is THIS how normal people feel???? I told my bf it was like someone finally flipped off a switch in my body and my brain stopped vibrating. It's such an upgrade in quality of life and I'm so happy you have that!!

And I'm right there with you in the "wtf how did I survive this long without it???" ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ It's really frustrating looking back at like, school and past jobs and knowing now WHY everything felt like a struggle. It's genuinely sad, but I'm glad we both have something to help going forward. Hope it continues to be a boon for you!

[deemoyza]

Thank you so much! 💕 Treating ADHD has been such a revelation for me, and I'm looking forward to seeing what I'm able to do now that my thoughts aren't screaming over one another.

[iffylogic]

Whoa?? That's amazing, I'm friggin thrilled for you! That's gotta be eye-watering relief after so long. :D

I totally feel you wondering where your life might have been if you'd known sooner, god do I know that feel lol. Even if it doesn't go away fully, it gets easy to live with the longer you enjoy the luxury of just... feeling okay! Looking forward and all that. ✌

[deemoyza]

Thank you!!! 💕 Yes, this is a major relief; I actually cried the day following this post, just from the relief and the sensation of having a quiet mind at last. And I think that twinge of regret I mentioned will remain in the back of my mind for a while, but even one week into treatment, it's beginning to fade into the background of more pleasant thoughts and plans for my newfound focus! :D