An epiphany

[deemoyza]

Even though I orphaned my last fic, I have been monitoring feedback, and likely will continue to do so for a few more days, simply because it helps me gauge reader reaction. So far, the fic has received two comments, both of which came from readers who apparently enjoyed it, and this has led me to a realization: my opinion on my own work is not an accurate reflection of its general quality. I have always held myself and my work to a higher standard than I demand of others, and I think part of that has to do with my own ego. While I know I'll never create a Masterpiece, I can't accept creating anything that falls short of that -- if you guessed that this mindset means I'm dissatisfied with a lot of my output, you'd be correct. But readers, myself included, are not looking for masterpieces; we just want coherent, enjoyable stories to read, and I can deliver that, at least.

So no, I don't regret orphaning this particular fic, but I am encouraged by the reaction to it. I don't have to always bring my A-game, so to speak, to make something other people can enjoy. Knowing this, perhaps I have been putting way too much pressure on myself, especially in regard to original fic. Maybe it's time to dust those little story ideas off and give them a fair chance.

Comments

[iffylogic]

Gotta love the classic creator's dilemma of being more critical of your work than anyone else. 😫 I'm so glad you got positive comments on it though!!

Seriously, it's like... when you're really down about your work, kind feedback isn't just uplifting, it gets you out of your own head. Thank goodness for it 💖

[deemoyza]

Oh, you're absolutely right about kind feedback! I think it's natural for all of us to doubt our abilities sometimes, and a kind word about our work helps to give us a better, gentler perspective on it. :)