A few things.
Mar. 18th, 2022 05:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
deemoyza- Mystery pizza! Got home from work this morning to find a pizza in front of my door. According to the receipt, Uber Eats apparently misdelivered it. Double pepperoni, too. :'( I hope the person who ordered it got a replacement.
- Writing is still slow going. My brain is jammed with other stuff at the moment. I did manage a double drabble this week, though, bringing my YTD word count total to 10,205.
- I've been falling behind in queuing things up on Tumblr. Basically, when I see something I enjoy, I like the post, then shove it into my drafts for later reblogging. My drafts folder is pretty well stuffed now, and at this point, I think it's best to just go through and delete things, and develop a more streamlined reblogging/queuing system going forward.
- Still feeling a little disconnect between myself and various writing/fannish communities. I just think I'm operating on a different wavelength, at the moment; once (if!) things settle down irl, I think I'll start to feel better about it all.
- Speaking of irl stuff, I'm currently shopping around for a new therapist. The last one I worked with was very lovely and respectful, but she just wasn't a good fit. While I understand the goal of talk therapy is to find solutions to problems, some therapists seem to latch really hard onto the first issue or two and try to force that through, rather than wait to see the rest of the tangled mess those issues are a part of. I had a good therapist in Arizona about six years ago, and I'm sure I'll eventually find the right one here, too.
- How is it only Friday, but also already more than halfway through March?!
- Writing is still slow going. My brain is jammed with other stuff at the moment. I did manage a double drabble this week, though, bringing my YTD word count total to 10,205.
- I've been falling behind in queuing things up on Tumblr. Basically, when I see something I enjoy, I like the post, then shove it into my drafts for later reblogging. My drafts folder is pretty well stuffed now, and at this point, I think it's best to just go through and delete things, and develop a more streamlined reblogging/queuing system going forward.
- Still feeling a little disconnect between myself and various writing/fannish communities. I just think I'm operating on a different wavelength, at the moment; once (if!) things settle down irl, I think I'll start to feel better about it all.
- Speaking of irl stuff, I'm currently shopping around for a new therapist. The last one I worked with was very lovely and respectful, but she just wasn't a good fit. While I understand the goal of talk therapy is to find solutions to problems, some therapists seem to latch really hard onto the first issue or two and try to force that through, rather than wait to see the rest of the tangled mess those issues are a part of. I had a good therapist in Arizona about six years ago, and I'm sure I'll eventually find the right one here, too.
- How is it only Friday, but also already more than halfway through March?!
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Date: 2022-03-22 01:09 pm (UTC)SERIOUSLY THO WHAT IS UP WITH THAT. A big part of why I left my last therapist was due to her not having the experience to deal with my gender identity stuff, but wow, she loved circling things back to my non-existent relationship with my dad (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ I hope you find a new and better therapist. It's always difficult finding someone who's accepting new patients AND takes your insurance, let alone someone who fits your needs. I hope it's a smooth, quick, and painless process!
I feel you RE: Tumblr :\ for me, I've been caught up in Twitter and basking in the bonus content that's just not on Tumblr at all. And so sorry RE: fannish/writing communities too 🥺 it can be a really lonely experience when you're not vibing with what everyone else is doing. Such a bleh feeling. Hugs for you! Whatever you do, I hope you have a blast, even if it's with a select few 💕
Also~ I saw you posted a Transistor fic??? 😍 I'm so behind on reading fics in general, but I made a noise when I saw it!! Thank you for keeping this lil fandom alive!
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Date: 2022-03-29 04:05 am (UTC)Anyway, I did find a therapist who deals specifically with the issues I want to sort out, and I've scheduled an appointment with her for early April. Unfortunately, my insurance doesn't cover this, but I figure it's still worth a try. If we're not a good fit, then I'm only out the cost of a night on the town; if we are, I can budget for future appointments. Fingers crossed! :)
I'm finally catching up on Tumblr, though my drafts folder is still pretty much a mess. At the moment, I'm focusing on smaller fandoms and general cute stuff, and it's made the experience quite a bit better. I think the things I've missed the most in writing and fan communities are the discussions, particularly the meta discussions. I suspect those have moved mostly to Discord, but I'm too lazy (and averse to chat) to make the move, myself. I've pretty much decided that while I'm working to find my place in these communities, I'll spend the time filling the fandom tags with fic--that way, I'm still participating, and still having fun! :D
Speaking of fic, I don't think I'll ever tire of writing Transistor fic! I'm sad that the fandom's grown so quiet, but I will work my best to keep my little corner of it afloat. :)