Weekly Update
Jan. 5th, 2022 09:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
deemoyzaUgh. Digging myself out of a depressive episode that I really should have seen coming. I always get depressed at New Year's, but this year, both New Year's Eve and New Year's Day were surprisingly chill. I read a bit and watched some movies and generally enjoyed myself, then BOOM! January 2nd rolled in and walloped me with the worst episode I've had since July 2020. :/ It didn't last too long, thank goodness, but it was bad, and horrible thoughts I thought I had under control just kept spinning around in my head the entire time. I've got an appointment with a therapist on Monday (so thankful they could take me so soon!), so hopefully a little talk therapy can supplement my meds and I can put off adjusting the dosage for a little bit longer.
My depression is really a confluence of problems that don't sound that bad on their own, but make up a perfect storm when they come together. But the biggest one is that I feel like I'm standing at a dead end, with all the branching paths behind me, on a road too narrow to turn around. I think everybody reaches their own dead end eventually; I just wish I could've lived a little before I reached mine.
Anyway, enough moping! I did manage to write a little bit between Christmas and New Year's, to bring my 2021 total to just over 118k. Not bad, considering there were weeks on end where I didn't produce anything at all.
And I'm incredibly fond of the fic that came of it, that "Bracken and Fir" I'm talking up on every fic meme that catches my attention. I fell in love with The Blue Castle and its lovely couple, and I was inspired. Come on, spending a summer night on a bed of bracken in the woods? Sounds pretty darn romantic to me (as long as I don't think about wolves and bears and the like ;))!
2021 Year-End Stats!
Total words written this week: 1,895
Total words written in 2021: 118,279
Total days written this week: 2
Total days written 2021: 82
My depression is really a confluence of problems that don't sound that bad on their own, but make up a perfect storm when they come together. But the biggest one is that I feel like I'm standing at a dead end, with all the branching paths behind me, on a road too narrow to turn around. I think everybody reaches their own dead end eventually; I just wish I could've lived a little before I reached mine.
Anyway, enough moping! I did manage to write a little bit between Christmas and New Year's, to bring my 2021 total to just over 118k. Not bad, considering there were weeks on end where I didn't produce anything at all.
And I'm incredibly fond of the fic that came of it, that "Bracken and Fir" I'm talking up on every fic meme that catches my attention. I fell in love with The Blue Castle and its lovely couple, and I was inspired. Come on, spending a summer night on a bed of bracken in the woods? Sounds pretty darn romantic to me (as long as I don't think about wolves and bears and the like ;))!
2021 Year-End Stats!
Total words written this week: 1,895
Total words written in 2021: 118,279
Total days written this week: 2
Total days written 2021: 82
