Random ramblings

[deemoyza]

It's been a while. Overall, I'm doing okay.

Job stuff

I'm still enjoying my part-time job (well, enjoying as much as one can enjoy having to work; I like the atmosphere and my coworkers, and that makes SUCH a difference), but I'm starting to put out feelers for a different full-time one. My mental health comes into play with that one, mostly in the hours upon hours of braindead boredom inherent in custodial work. When I'm having a good day, it's fine; I get to daydream and stuff. But when I start to spiral, there's nothing to stop it, nothing to distract me from that, and that's made the whole endeavor more stressful than it should be. I don't need to do anything important; just something that keeps my mind occupied even at a basic level.

Facebook can suck it

Anyway, with all this going on, my brain decided that now, of all times, would be the best time to jump back into burlesque. I know, it's ridiculous! But I've signed up for a multi-week class, and I was accepted into a short-term mentorship program in which I get assistance in developing a solo act, with a weekend-long event at the end. It's exciting, but unfortunately, the event has chosen Facebook as its means of communication. 🤮 I don't have an account (I tried one back in, like, 2012, but got spooked by Facebook recommending me people I went to grade school with. NO.), so I made one under my stage name, and even made a little logo to use as a profile picture. I probably shouldn't have told FB I was 120 years old, though, since that seems to have triggered an account suspension that can only be appealed with a video selfie. Um, no. NO.

I'll email my assigned mentor and ask if I can check in via e-mail, the way God intended electronic communication to be handled, and if not, I can always withdraw. We already have so little privacy in this world, why would I willingly submit myself to the slimy grasp of Meta's incredibly invasive tentacles?

In happier happenings, I'm finally getting a feel for the outline I've written for my fairytale bang fic. It's been a struggle, mostly in concentration. XD I've also been chilling with some old video games the past few days. I appreciate Final Fantasy X more with each playthrough. I remember that when I played it the first time, back in the early 00s, I wasn't particularly keen on it. I didn't warm to Tidus at all, and Yuna's quiet nature made her seem passive after Rinoa and Selphie and even Garnet. But now I see the strength beneath her quietness, and I love her so much. I've even come around to liking Tidus. He's just a goofy kid that got swept up in something much more serious, and I enjoy watching him grow into his role as a guardian. Also, he and Yuna are just too cute together! Also-also: Kimahri, my beloved. ❤ Who wouldn't want a giant blue kittycat as a bodyguard?

I'm probably going to jump into X-2 after this. Despite the tonal whiplash from FFX and the cartoonish stupidity of the early chapters in particular, I really enjoy the gameplay, and the story also has some surprisingly effective scenes. I still get a chill when Yuna sees Bahamut for the first time in X-2. What has so far been an easy-breezy romp through Spira suddenly takes on a darker undertone, and Bahamut's presence here feels so appropriately wrong. Also, doing all the requirements for the Tidus ending and having Yuna decide that she doesn't need the fayth to bring him back because he's been with her the whole time, in her heart and in her memories. Oh, my heart! 😭

And then there's Paine. Paine is coolness incarnate (well, in-pixelate), and a great temper to the other girls' hyperactivity. Love her!

Okay, this got rambly. Basically, I'm still kicking, and taking a bit of downtime for myself when and where I can get it. The days are getting longer and the trees are budding and blooming, and even though I dread the coming of summer, it is so nice to leave the darkness of winter behind.

Comments

[runicmagitek]

I probably shouldn't have told FB I was 120 years old, though, since that seems to have triggered an account suspension that can only be appealed with a video selfie. Um, no. NO.

WHAT THE LEGITIMATE FUCK??? 😰 I stopped updating my Facebook back in like... 2018 or so for my own mental health and I can't only imagine how it's gotten worse. That's so immensely fucked up that you'd have to jump through such hoops to unsuspend your account. Also it's equally stupid to have all communications for the group via Facebook. I understand it's (usually) convenient, but the lack of accessibility plus... you know, the state of the world/social media in general, it just seems like a bad long-term solution 😬

Regardless, I hope burlesque goes well! Same with your gaming and bang fic!!!

[deemoyza]

I even made a good-faith effort to try again with a different email address (and more believable age!), but I think they recognized my IP address and shut that one down within five minutes. Oh, well. No real loss. I'm happy to stay FB-free!

(Incidentally, while I was researching the type of account suspension I received, I came across threads detailing the same thing happening to accounts that people had had for years. Subsequently, I found out that the next step in the appeal process is providing government ID, so I feel like I REALLY dodged a bullet here!)

Anyway, gaming is going well and I'm ever-so-slowly chipping away at my bang fic, but enjoying it nonetheless! Thanks for letting me vent about FB! 😊

[iffylogic]

As if Meta weren't prejudiced enough, now they're ageist against supercentenarians!? >:U Seriously though I hope you can get back into the burlesque classes! It's crazy to assume everyone has an FB in 2025, it not as ubiquitous as it used to be; surely they can make it work. 🤞🤞

I'm glad you're finding time for fics and FFX2, congratulations on surviving Winter!! ^^💖

[deemoyza]

I know, right? I half-jokingly did consider crying age discrimination, but it felt like too much effort, even as a joke. XD As for the burlesque event that this was for, I never got a reply to my email, so I assume I'm no longer welcome. No loss! I'm taking another burlesque class focused on comedy right now, and I think I like this one much better than what the other one was going to be, anyway.

But yeah, making time for games and fics has been such a boon for my mental health! Whoever would have guessed? ;)