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deemoyzaFirst, the good news: the latest dose of my antidepressant finally kicked in, and I think we got it right this time! \o/ Hopefully, I can stay on this one as long as I did the initial dose.
So, you may be thinking, this must be wonderfully conducive to writing! I am sorry, dear reader, to report that it is, in fact, not. I have ideas, plenty of them, too many of them, but actually putting them into coherent sentences is not easy. Complicating matters is that I seem to have lost all sense of the characters I'm writing about. I know who they are, how they act, etc., but it's been very difficult to capture that in my stories. Which is sad, because I like these characters.
Looking over at AO3, I noticed that my last three stories have followed a trend of being, if not outright downers, then more...subdued than usual, especially considering the characters involved. I had intended my most recent to feel a bit more jubilant, a bit more exciting, but it kinda fell flat. It doesn't help that one of the scenes starts very similarly to a scene in the previous fic (dammit, Red, when will you learn to keep your man's preferred drinks on hand? ;) ). It's just, there should have been more spark, but reading over it, I don't see how I could have written it differently. It's like the magic isn't there right now.
And this is concerning, because I still have outstanding Tumblr prompts, and I wanted to write my "into a bar" fic, and I really, really wanted to get at least one Yahtzee fill. But right now, my writing confidence is low, and I don't know if I trust myself to work with any of these, at the moment.
Blarg.
So, you may be thinking, this must be wonderfully conducive to writing! I am sorry, dear reader, to report that it is, in fact, not. I have ideas, plenty of them, too many of them, but actually putting them into coherent sentences is not easy. Complicating matters is that I seem to have lost all sense of the characters I'm writing about. I know who they are, how they act, etc., but it's been very difficult to capture that in my stories. Which is sad, because I like these characters.
Looking over at AO3, I noticed that my last three stories have followed a trend of being, if not outright downers, then more...subdued than usual, especially considering the characters involved. I had intended my most recent to feel a bit more jubilant, a bit more exciting, but it kinda fell flat. It doesn't help that one of the scenes starts very similarly to a scene in the previous fic (dammit, Red, when will you learn to keep your man's preferred drinks on hand? ;) ). It's just, there should have been more spark, but reading over it, I don't see how I could have written it differently. It's like the magic isn't there right now.
And this is concerning, because I still have outstanding Tumblr prompts, and I wanted to write my "into a bar" fic, and I really, really wanted to get at least one Yahtzee fill. But right now, my writing confidence is low, and I don't know if I trust myself to work with any of these, at the moment.
Blarg.
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Date: 2022-06-20 12:20 am (UTC)Sorry about the writer's block (or fizzle?) though. It sounds like you're suggesting the medication may have had a hand in it? In which case, I wonder if it's a matter of acclimating. I certainly hope so.
I wouldn't be surprised, I was on citalopram for a few years and it had a similar effect on my creativity for a while. :T
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Date: 2022-06-26 03:05 am (UTC)I didn't mean to suggest the meds might be affecting my creativity, but that might actually be the case, now that I think about it! Because my medication treats both depression and anxiety, it has had a bit of a sedative/dulling effect at the outset before, so that might be what's going on here. If so, I should be adjusting in the coming weeks; fingers crossed!
Or it could just be a random brain fizzle. :/ I've had those before, too, and they always pass eventually.
Either way, it's a waiting game. At least I won't be at a loss for ideas once my writing habit gets back on track! :)